I'm 5'6'' and I'm still too ashamed to step on the scale, so I'm not sure about my weight. I’ve envied stick thin girls since I could see the difference between them and me. I was never fat. I was a little chuby, but that’s it. When I was ten, I started dieting, and I lost as much weight as I got tall, I was no longer chubby. At the age of 12, I found out weight loss medicine. Still safe, still losing weight. Then I was 13, and found out that if I mix caffeine, aspirine, and the most important, asthma remediy, I could loose near 2 pounds every day for some time. I lost 9 pounds in a week. Turns out that that asthma remedy could cause heart problems. I didn’t care, I kept having the mix. I could feel my heart hearting and everyday I felt like faiting, I felt awefully sick. But I didn’t care, I was losing weight. I only stopped because I couldn’t find it anymore at the pharmacies. So sice I was like five I’ve been craving for thin, and I’ll never stop, even knowing it might hurt me, I can’t stop. I just can’t. That’s it, I just felt the need to tell someone. Thank you for reading this.